FTMtv week 38 - Dominic - Coming out (revisited) with special guests!
It’s week 38 on FTM Television, and this week’s topic is coming out.
The video footage in this video was actually recorded back in August of 2011 for week 6. My week 6 video was late at the time as it was.. and I never ended up posting it. Well, here it is now. Revisiting old topics gives me the chance to catch up! ;)
Anyway, this video is really long, however, when you watch it, it doesn’t seem that long for some reason.
The interviewer guy in my video is my good friend Milo, who is actually a sub now on FTMtv.. but now has way less hair and a way deeper voice!
The adorable little blonde kid in this video is his.
An email from my mother in response to the one I sent her, in which she essentially tells me I’m nothing if I’m not living as the person I was “born as”.
Since you were so transparent with me, I thought I owed you the same. The truth is that I thought about you all day Christmas day, as I do every day. You are my child and will always be my child.
You are right mothers just don’t stop loving their children. It must really hurt to feel as though you are not part of the family. I know this because of the pain I feel in my heart. I long for you to be part of our family. I long to have my beautiful daughter back. You truly were my sunshine. God blessed me the day you were conceived. However there is such a huge calling of God on your life that the enemy can’t stand it! I believe that’s why he has confused you. The gifts that God gave you were intended to show the love of God to others. He longs for you to sing to him.
Because of my deep faith and strong relationship with my heavenly father, I have a completely different view of things from the rest of the world. I know that children (all children) are a gift from God. He knew you before you were born, He formed you in my womb and he has a plan and a purpose for your life. When you surrender your life to Him and allow Him to show you His plan and feel His love for you, then you will experience true happiness.
I tell you all of this not for my benefit but for yours. I owe it to you to tell what I know to be true. What kind of a mother would I be if I lied to you and pretended it was ok. I can’t make you believe this, nor do I want to. This is between you and your heavenly father.
Dawn I love you very much as do your brothers and sister and your Dad. I believe that the moment you put your trust in God you will feel all of that love come back and then you will know that you are part of our family and God’s. I look forward to rejoicing with the angel’s when that happens.
All my love, forever and always,
[so basically, she just.. justified treating me like I’m not part of the family.. and essentially told me that once I go back to “being HER”, they’ll treat me like part of the family again and everything will be okay.. but until then.. well.. tough, because I’m going against god’s plan?]
In this video, I talk about a few christmas traditions and memories of christmases past.. as well as talk about my plans (or lack thereof) for the upcoming holidays.. and share a letter I sent my mother, where I talked about how not having my family affects me around this time of year.